A Poem by Rachael Boast
The Infernal Method
'Enough! or Too much!'
– William Blake
It all boils down to a chalk seam,
duress of minerals, the wrong kind of rain.
Jupiter gives, Saturn takes away.
Your aggravated skin grows at a rate
envied by the best amphibious relative –
salamander or frog, eyes popping
into fresh sockets, the lizard bingeing
on its own calcium deposits, sometimes
in pieces and sometimes in one piece.
You walk along St Swithun Street
signalling nonchalance, a need not
to have to explain the inexplicable hell
of circles, and then loop back to a bench
by the cathedral, hoping no one's noticed
the colours of ordeal, the hot and dry
cartography of scars. To no avail. Start again.
You're learning the infernal method:
how to treat fire with fire, if all else fails;
a caustic pilgrimage 'salutary and medicinal,
melting apparent surfaces away' – except
it doesn't. Stop. Start again. Jupiter gives,
Saturn takes away. You continue along
the perimeter wall by the Itchen river,
her green curtains closed. How to hold fire
and keep moving? Fire on fire, cancelling
itself out. And round again, assuming
a measured pace as you pass back
through the city gate to College Street
where a fine dust spreads over the books
in P&G Wells and you pull out a copy
of Answer to Job with the god-awful
cheese grater on the cover,
sliding it back into its capable abyss.
Jupiter gives, Saturn takes away everything
except for the catastrophic weather of skin.
Rachael Boast has published three collections of poetry, which are all available from Picador. Her fourth, Hotel Raphael, is due in May 2021. She is co-editor of The Echoing Gallery: Bristol Poets and Art in the City (Redcliffe Press, 2013) and The Caught Habits of Language: An Entertainment for W.S. Graham for Him Having Reached One Hundred (Donut Press, 2018). She lives in Bristol.